Εἰς τὸ ὄνομα τοῦ Πατρὸς καὶ τοῦ Υἱοῦ καὶ τοῦ Ἁγίου Πνεύματος
Ποιὰ σχέση ἔχει τὸ γεγονὸς ποὺ ἀναφέρεται στὸ σημερινό Εὐαγγέλιο μὲ μᾶς; Ποιὸς ἔχει τὴν πίστη, τὴν ἠρεμία, τὴν βεβαιότητα ὅτι κανένας ἄλλος παρὰ μόνο ὁ Θεὸς μπορεῖ νὰ ξαναδώσει ἐλευθερία στὶς κινήσεις μας;
Ἡ ἱστορία δὲν εἶναι μιὰ παραβολή, εἶναι γεγονός· ἀλλὰ ἐπίσης μᾶς μεταφέρει κάτι περισσότερο ἀπὸ τὴν δύναμη τοῦ Θεοῦ νὰ θεραπεύει τὶς φυσικὲς ἀσθένειες, ἐὰν Τὸν πλησιάσουμε μὲ πίστη· ἔχοντας παραμερίσει κάθε ἄλλη ἐλπίδα,ἀλλὰ γνωρίζοντας μὲ βεβαιότητα ὅτι ἡ ζωὴ καὶ ὁ θάνατος μας, ἡ ὑγεία καὶ ἡ ἀσθένεια μας εἶναι στὰ χέρια τοῦ Ζωντανοῦ Θεοῦ, ποὺ διάλεξε νὰ γίνει ἄνθρωπος καὶ νὰ ζήσει ἀνάμεσά μας, νὰ μοιραστεῖ μαζί μας τὰ πάντα, τὸν θάνατο καὶ τὸν πόνο, τὴν ἀγωνία τοῦ νοῦ καὶ τὸν τρόμο ποὺ ἴσως μᾶς πολεμᾶ ὅταν βλέπουμε τὸν κόσμο γύρω μας, τὸν κόσμο ποὺ δημιουργήσαμε καὶ δημιουργοῦμε.
Ἀλλὰ σ’ αὐτὴν τὴν ἱστορία ὑπάρχει μία ἄλλη διάσταση ποὺ θέλω νὰ προσέξετε. Ποιὸς ἀπὸ ἐμᾶς μπορεῖ νὰ πεῖ ὅτι δὲν εἶναι παράλυτος; Παράλυτος ἀπὸ φόβο, ἀπὸ τὴν ἐπιθυμία να δεῖ τὸν ἑαυτό του νὰ δέχεται τὰ πιὸ λαμπρὰ φῶτα τῆς δόξας, παράλυτος ἀπὸ τοὺς ὑπολογισμοὺς ποὺ δὲν μᾶς ἐπιτρέπουν νὰ δράσουμε, ν’ ἀναπνεύσουμε ἐλεύθερα δίχως φόβο; Πόσοι ἀπὸ μᾶς θὰ τολμούσαμε νὰ ποῦμε ὅτι δὲν διακατεχόμαστε ἀπὸ τὴν ἐπιθυμία νὰ δοῦμε τοὺς ἑαυτοὺς μας καλύτερους ἀπ’ ὅ,τι εἶναι, νὰ τοὺς βλέπουμε ὅπως δὲν εἶναι, ὅπως δὲν μᾶς βλέπει ὁ Θεὸς; Πόσοι ἀπὸ μᾶς θὰ μπορούσαμε νὰ ποῦμε, «θέλω νὰ δῶ τὸν ἑαυτό μου, ὅπως εἶναι - ὄχι μονάχα σ’ ὅλη μου τὴν ἀδυναμία, ἀλλὰ στὴν πτώση, τὴν δολιότητα, τὴν ἀσχήμια μου, γεμάτος ἀπὸ φόβο, ἀπὸ ματαιότητα, καὶ αὐτὸ ἐξαιτίας τῆς ἐπιθυμίας μου νὰ κρίνομαι ἀπὸ τὰ ἐξωτερικὰ πράγματα καὶ ὄχι μὲ βάση τὴν πραγματικότητα;
Καὶ ὅμως ὁ Ἅγιος Ἰωάννης τῆς Κλίμακος λέει ὅτι αὐτὸς ποὺ διακατέχεται ἀπὸ τὴν ματαιότητα εἶναι ὑπερήφανος στὰ μάτια τοῦ Θεοῦ, ἐνῶ γιὰ τοὺς ἀνθρώπους εἶναι δειλὸς.
Πόσοι ἀπὸ μᾶς ζοῦν συνεχῶς μετρώντας τὶς κουβέντες τους, ὑπολογίζοντας τὶς πράξεις τους, ἀναλογιζόμενοι τὸ ἀποτέλεσμα τους· ὄχι μόνο προσβλέποντας σ’ ἔνα καλὸ ἀποτέλεσμα, ἀλλὰ μὲ τὸ φόβο πὼς θὰ μᾶς κρίνουν οἱ ἄνθρωποι; Πόσο φοβόμαστε νὰ κοιτάξουμε τὸν ἑαυτό μας καὶ νὰ δοῦμε τὴν ἀλήθεια, νὰ μὴν κοιτάζουμε πιὰ στὸν παραμορφωτικό καθρέφτη ποὺ δείχνει σὲ μᾶς καὶ στοὺς ἄλλους τοὺς ἑαυτούς μας ὄμορφους, ἀποδεκτοὺς, εὐγενεῖς, ἁγνοὺς -ἀλλὰ σ’ ἕναν ἄλλον καθρέφτη, τὸν καθρέφτη τῆς συνείδησης μας, τὸν καθρέφτη τῶν λόγων τοῦ Θεοῦ καὶ τῆς κρίσης Του, ποὺ γνωρίζουμε, ἀλλὰ ἀπ’ ὅπου ἀποστρέφουμε τὸ βλέμμα μας; Πόσοι ἀπὸ μᾶς ὅταν ἔχουμε τὴν ἐλάχιστη εἰκόνα τοῦ ποιοὶ εἴμαστε, δὲν ἐπιτρέπουμε αὐτὴ τὴν ἀκτίνα φωτὸς νὰ πάει πέρα ἀπὸ μιὰ φοβισμένη συνειδητοποίση καὶ νὰ καταδυθεῖ στὴν καρδιά μας, νὰ ψάξει στὶς πιὸ σκοτεινές γωνιές της, ἐκεῖ ὅπου δὲν ἔχει διεισδύσει τὸ φῶς, ποὺ ἡ ἀγάπη δὲν ἔχει ποτὲ φτάσει, ἐκεῖ ποὺ δὲν ἔχει ἀκουστεῖ ποτὲ ἡ ἀλήθεια; Πόσοι ἀπὸ μᾶς εἶναι ἀρκετὰ τίμιοι γιὰ νὰ κρίνουν τοὺς ἑαυτοὺς τους, τὶς πράξεις τους στὸ φῶς τῆς ἀλήθειας;
Εἴμαστε ὅλοι παράλυτοι: Παράλυτοι ἐξαιτίας τοῦ φόβου, τῶν ὑπολογισμῶν, ἐξαιτίας τῆς ἀπόφασης νὰ μὴν βλέπουμε, ἐπειδὴ φοβόμαστε αὐτὸ ποὺ ἴσως δοῦμε. Ἀκόμα φανταζόμαστε ὅλοι ὅτι μποροῦμε νὰ ζήσουμε τὴ ζωὴ ἑνὸς παραλυτικοῦ καὶ νὰ πεθάνουμε ὑγιεῖς. Ὅτι ἵσως ζήσουμε μιὰ ὁλόκληρη ζωὴ χωρὶς νὰ ἔχουμε δεῖ ποτὲ τὴν ἀλήθεια, νὰ σταθοῦμε ἐνώπιον τοῦ Θεοῦ, ποὺ εἶναι ἡ Ἀλήθεια καὶ νὰ μᾶς δεχτεῖ. Δὲν εἶναι ζήτημα τοῦ Θεοῦ νὰ μᾶς ἀπορρίψει! Τὸ θέμα εἶναι ὅτι θὰ ἀνακαλύψουμε ξαφνικὰ μὲ τρόμο, ὅτι δὲν ἔχουμε καμιὰ θέση στὸ βασίλειο τῆς Ἀλήθειας, στὸ βασίλειο τῆς τολμηρῆς Ἀλήθειας, τῆς ὀμορφιᾶς, τῆς ἡρωικῆς ὀμορφιᾶς.
Ἄς προβληματιστοῦμε πάνω σ’ αὐτὸ· ἄς μὴν σκεφτόμαστε τὸν ἄνθρωπο ποὺ ἦταν παράλυτος καὶ τοῦ ὁποίου ἡ πίστη ἐνεργοποίησε τὴ δύναμη τοῦ Θεοῦ νὰ τον θεραπεύσει· ἄς σκεφτοῦμε τὴ δική μας παραλυσία.
Σὲ μιὰ ἀπὸ τὶς τελευταῖες μου ὁμιλίες, ρωτήθηκα ἀπὸ κάποιον· «γιατί τὸ τελευταῖο σας κήρυγμα ἦταν τόσο αὐστηρό;» Μπορῶ να ἀπαντήσω μὲ κάθε τιμιότητα: ἐπειδὴ ἐπὶ μῆνες ἔψαχνα την ψυχή μου, ἦλθα ἀντιμέτωπος μὲ τὴ συνείδηση μου, καὶ βλέποντας μὲ τρόμο ὅτι ζῶ ἕνα ψέμα, ὅτι δὲν εἶμαι Χριστιανὸς σύμφωνα μὲ τὸ Εὐαγγέλιο, ὅτι δὲν μὲ καταδικάζει μὸνο τὸ Εὐαγγέλιο, ἀλλὰ αὐτὸ ποὺ μοιάζει νὰ εἶμαι σὰν Χριστιανὸς. Ναί, αὐτὸ ποὺ ἐννοῶ εἶναι αὐτὸ ποὺ νοιὼθω γιὰ τὸν ἑαυτὸ μου· ἀλλὰ νοιώθετε παρόμοια πράγματα, ἀκόμα καὶ ἄν εἶστε ἀπείρως πιὸ ἄξιοι γιὰ τὸν Θεὸ ἀπὸ ἐμένα; Δὲν νοιώθετε ὅτι, ὅλοι, περισσότερο ἤ λιγότερο, ἁμαρτάνουμε κατὰ τὸν ἴδιο τρόπο, ὅτι ὅλοι προδίδουμε τὸν ἑαυτό μας ποὺ καλεῖται νὰ γίνει ἀποκάλυψη τῆς ζωῆς τοῦ Θεοῦ, μιὰ ὁρατὴ εἰκόνα, μιὰ θεϊκὴ παρουσία ποὺ ἐνσαρκώνεται στὴν ψυχή, στὸ σῶμα, σὲ ἔργα καὶ λόγια, σὲ σκέψεις καὶ αἰσθήματα, σὲ προθέσεις καὶ ἀποτελέσματα- δὲν τὸ βλέπουμε αὐτό; Ἐγὼ τὸ βλέπω! Καὶ αὐτὸ ποὺ λέω δὲν εἶναι παρὰ μιὰ ἐξομολόγηση- ναὶ μιὰ ἐξομολόγηση ποὺ ἀπευθύνεται σὲ ὅλους ἐσᾶς: αὐτὸ εἶναι ποὺ βλέπω στὸν ἑαυτό μου- ἐξετᾶστε τὸν ἑαυτό σας: ἴσως ἔχουμε ἀκόμα χρόνο νὰ γίνουμε ἀληθινοὶ καὶ πραγματικοὶ ὅπως ὁ Θεὸς μᾶς θέλει, νὰ γίνουμε ὅ,τι ὀνειρεύεται γιὰ μᾶς ὁ Θεὸς, νὰ ἀνταποκριθοῦμε στὴν ἀγάπη Του ὄχι προδίδοντας τον ἑαυτὸ μας, ὁ ἕνας τὸν ἄλλον καὶ Ἐκεῖνον.
Καὶ ὑπάρχει ἐλπίδα· ὑπάρχει ἐλπίδα ἐπειδὴ ὁ Θεὸς ἔχει τὴ δύναμη νὰ θεραπεύει, ὁ Θεός ἔχει τὴ δύναμη νὰ συντρίψει τὴν παράλυση μας ἐὰν στραφοῦμε σ’ Ἐκεῖνον μὲ πίστη, ἐλπίδα καὶ κουράγιο! Ἀμήν.
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Πρωτότυπο Κείμενο
HEALING OF THE PARALYTIC
10 July 1988
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost.
What has the event related today in the Gospel (St. Matthew IX: l-8) to do with us? Who of us is aware of being paralysed? And who of us has the faith, a calm and yet passionate certainty that no one but God can give us again the freedom of our movements?
This story is not a parable, it is an event; but it also conveys to us something more than the power of God to heal physical sickness if we come to Him with faith; that is having put aside all other hope but knowing for certain that our life and our death, our health and our sickness are in the hand of the Living God Who has chosen to become man in our midst, to share with us everything, including death and pain, including agony of mind and all the horror which may strike us when we look at the surrounding world, the world which we have made and are making.
But there is another aspect in this story to which I want to attract your attention. Who of us can say that he is not paralysed? Paralysed by fear, paralysed by the desire to be seen in the best of lights, paralysed by our calculations that do not allow us to act freely, to breathe freely, to be fearless? How many of us could dare say that they are not possessed of the desire to be seen better than they are, to be seen as they are not, as God does not see us? How many of us could say, «I want to be seen as I am — not only in all my frailty (this, others could accept), but in my deceitfulness, in my ugliness, full of fear, full of vanity», that is, of the desire to be judged on appearances and not on the reality?
And yet, Saint John of the Ladder says that one who is possessed of vanity is arrogant in the face of God while he is a coward in the face of men.
How many of us live continuously measuring our words, calculating our actions, thinking of the result; not only aiming at a good result but afraid of how people will judge us? How afraid we are to look at ourselves and see the truth about our own selves, no longer to look into the distorted mirror that shows us to ourselves and others as beautiful, acceptable, noble, pure — but in another mirror, the mirror of our conscience, the mirror of God's words and of God's judgement of which we are aware, but from which we avert our gaze? How many of us, when we catch a glimpse of what we are, do not allow this shaft of light to go beyond a frightened awareness and fall into our hearts to search the darkest corners of it, the deepest corners to which light has not penetrated, which love has never reached, in which the truth has never sounded? How many of us are honest enough to judge themselves, their actions, incipient or fulfilled, in the light of truth?
We are all paralysed: paralysed by fear, paralysed by calculations, paralysed by the determination not to see because we are afraid of what we may see. We still, all of us, imagine that we can live the life of a paralytic and die whole; that we may live a whole life never having faced the truth, and stand before God Who is the Truth — and be acceptable. Oh, it is not a matter of God rejecting us! It is a matter of suddenly discovering, with horror, that we have no place in the realm of Truth, in the realm of daring Truth, in the realm of beauty, of heroic beauty.
Let us reflect on this; let us not think of the man who was paralysed and whose faith healed his body by the power of God; let us think of our own paralysed condition. After one of my last sermons, I was asked by someone, «Why is it that your last sermon was so stern?» I can answer in all honesty: because for months and months I have been searching my own soul, confronting my own conscience, and seeing with horror that I live a lie, that I am not a Christian according to the Gospel, that I stand condemned not only by the Gospel itself, but by what I look like as a Christian. Yes, what I am saying is what I feel about myself; but do you not feel similar things, even if you are infinitely more worthy of God than I am? Do you not feel that, more or less, we all sin in the same way, that we all betray our own self which is called to be a revelation of God, a visible image, a divine presence incarnate in soul, in body, in action and word, in thought and feeling, in intention and result — do we not see that? I do! And what I say is a confession — yes, but a confession which is addressed to all of you: this is what I see in myself — LOOK at yourselves: we still perhaps have time to become true and real as God has willed us, to be what God dreams we should be, to respond to His love by not betraying ourselves, one another and Him.
And there is hope, there is hope because God has the power to heal, God has the power to break our palsy if we turn to Him with faith, and hope and courage! Amen
πηγή: Ορθόδοξος Τύπος, 15/7/2011
Ὁ ἅγιος Κυπριανὸς τὸν 3ο αἰ., ἀναφερόμενος στὰ θεάματα τοῦ θεάτρου τῆς ἐποχῆς του, ὑπογραμμίζει πὼς μὲ τὰ θεάματα αὐτὰ καθὼς καὶ μὲ τὸν τρόπο διδασκαλίας μέσω τοῦ θεάτρου ἐπαναλαμβάνονται οἱ ἀκολασίες τοῦ ἰδιωτικοῦ βίου
